Christ Without Cliques: Excommunicated, Not Disconnected

I Used To Speak From Pulpits:

Now I Speak From The Soul

Yes — I was a pastor.

Yes — I was excommunicated.

And no — I didn’t walk away from Christ’s teachings.

I walked away from the walls built around them.

Religion Didn’t Raise Me:

Spirit Did

The truth is, I didn’t grow up religious. And I thank God for that.

It gave me room to ask big questions.

To seek, sense, and stay curious without fear of retribution.

To experience mystical moments — without having them instantly labeled or shamed.

Like the unforgettable one I had at age five.

An actual photo of 5 yr old Me ("Messy Nessa" hehe)

Ironically, it wasn’t until I entered the church at 29 years old that I even learned what “religion” meant. Up until that point, people were my wonder and nature my sanctum.

Why I Walked Into Church:

What I Witnessed

I walked into church for two reasons:

1. To make sense of the mystical experiences I’d had all my life

2. To find others who felt Spirit the way I did

And for a while, I did.

I heard stories that stretched my soul.

I saw people lay bare their pain, their faith, their fire.

I witnessed moments of deep reverence and belonging.

I experienced a community that welcomed my gifts.

I was made a leader in multiple areas and turned my gifts into abilities.

But I also saw power used to control, not to heal.

I saw hierarchy override humanity.

I saw cliques where there should’ve been an inclusive community.

I didn't lose sight of Christ — I lost patience for the politics built around his message.

The Bible, the Stars:

What Got Me Kicked Out

I searched the scriptures for hours.

I researched the history.

I wanted the roots.

The origin.

These days, I rarely teach the Bible. But make no mistake — I still love studying it.

Especially once I realized something few talk about:

the Bible is rich in astrological, mystical, and symbolic wisdom.

That discovery didn’t distance me from God — it actually deepened my devotion.

(Who knows, maybe I'll write about the correlations in another blog post-if people are interested.)

Nevertheless, finding this connection only affirmed what got me excommunicated in the first place:

That God is not a box, a building, or a boys-only club. That love is not earned by conformity — it’s remembered by resonance.

What I Believe

Truth is these days, I don’t seek to believe — I seek to understand.

And if I believe in anything, it’s this:

we can heal from religious trauma without erasing our faith. That you can reclaim Christ without the Cliques.

The Wounded Faithful:

There Are More Than You Think

The religious would call people like me a backslider (or WORSE).

But I consider myself, and all like me, The Wounded Faithful.

Not because we still believe in what hurt us — but because we never stopped listening for the truth underneath it all.

The truth is...

You don’t have to reject everything to heal. You only have to return to what’s still true beneath the pain.

Besides, there are more of us than you may think.

So many felt called to selfless service and set out on their own.

You might be surprised to learn that some (not all ) have opted for anti-religious identities such as lightworker, energy healer/reader, intuitive, holistic practitioner, psychic, medium-not to mention a few astrologers. Many of us have studied multiple faiths, philosophies, nature, science, geometry and math in search of one thing: truth.

Aside from sharing my experience with religion and my personal philosophy with you in this blog; I actually consider our faith to be a deeply personal and private matter being that we are all so unique.

I mostly wrote in more detail to;

One — share the main reason I have been rejected by the church as a whole. It is due to my more universal views. I know that I am not alone.

Two — share with those who may be considering working with me that I not only take no issue with your beliefs, I actually think that our beliefs are meant to evolve as we do.

As an astrologer —

I personally find astrology very psychologically enriching for any student; faith or no faith.

For me, the language of astrology is a beautifully poetic mythos, rich in artistic and cultural expression and undoubtedly harmonious with my understanding of God.

It has only not deepened my understanding of both God and my place in the world, but also affirmed my Universalist views.

I can assure you of one thing; should you decide to call on me for guidance — my prayer life consists of and is centered around moving myself aside to be a conduit of divine support.

If This Resonates, You're Home

And if it doesn’t?

You’re still welcome.

To believe as you wish. To speak your truth. To act according to what is right for you.

In any case, this is holy ground — but without the ugly church carpet and faithless words.

If you care to know more about my spiritual philosophy, who I serve and what I do & don't do, read on below.

Otherwise, my only advice to anyone reading this:

Keep the sacred. Leave the systems that say you do not belong.

With relentless love and realness,

My Spiritual Philosophy

Jesus → my friend, my brother, my heart and the only teacher I'll ever truly take seriously

Christ Consciousness → eternal unconditional love, radical truth, and remembrance.

The Divine in All People → not based on belief systems, but on breath and being.

Mysticism Without Gatekeeping → because Spirit doesn’t require a middleman.

Who I Serve

I walk with those who:

• Were raised in religion but never felt safe in it

• Still hear Christ whispering, but don’t know how to trust it anymore

• Are spiritual, intuitive, or “too much” for traditional churches

• Want to reclaim their gifts without shame, fear, or dogma

If that’s you — you’re not lost. You’re listening.

What I Don’t Do

✖️ I don’t weaponize God

✖️ I don’t use fear as a leash

✖️ I don’t shame you for doubting

✖️ I don’t believe any one path holds all the answers

✖️ I don’t believe anyone needs to shrink, perform, or assemble to be one with God.